Video Editing & Production (Task 3 )

Video Editing & Production
Teo Zhi Ye (Celine)
0319755
17 September 2016.

Did you ever think about what hurtful really mean to you?For me,its kind of feeling that make me feel depressed, helpless, self abased and being nothing.Life won't always be nice right?Everyone will  met some problems that make our life being at a low ebb.Ya,its same to me.Let me talk about one of the most hurtful thing that i met in my life.
 
I used to be fat since i was a kid.Fat is kind of nightmare for me.As i said before,I really like to sing and dance since i was small.When i was still a kid,my mum decided to bring me to the singing academy to learn some singing skills.But the "teacher" refuse to teach me by claiming that im too fat.Its such ridiculous to giving an excuses that i dont want to teach you because you are fat.I didn't put it in mind about this because im still vry small at that moment.But now when i recall it,I feel angry and sad at the same moment.I always ask myself,what's wrong to be fat?Why being fat have to be look down by others?

During primary school,there will be dance performance that perform by each classes.Me and some of my friends that are group in the fat zone will never ever have a chance to perform.Almost the whole class was performing but only left us that always sit at the audience area to see them perform. I really envy them when seeing them practice together but what we can only do is just sit at the side doing nothing.Most of the time when they having practice,we were asked to stay in the class and do our own things.Not only that,i always met this kind of hurtful situations during secondary school.I lost all the opportunities to perform or taking part in activities just because there are no small size costume for fat people like me.I can only see pictures or video of my friends posted in facebook because i dont even given a chance to participate myself in it.

I still remember an incident that really hurts me and I will never ever forget about it.During form 5,everyone will like asking what u decide to study when you entering university. Im still not sure at what to study at that time.Im kind of having some interest of being a plastic surgery doctor so im like telling my friends that maybe i will choose this as the major i want to study.Did you know what the reaction i get?They laugh me,one of them even ask me to go and have plastic surgery first before I help others to do plastic surgery when i "successfully"become a plastic surgery doctor.Its just so sarcastic to me and it really hurts me so much after hearing what she said to me.

My friends always make fun of my 'size' by using all those bad and hurtful words since im small until  the moment that i slimmed down.I always try to ignore them but fail.Everytime i will just hide myself under my blanket and cry it out to relief myself.This is the only thing i can do.Everyday i have to disguise myself to act like being not to matter.But who really knows that actually my heart is hurt and bleeding at the same moment.Eveyone think that im always happy and optimistic, but no one ever realise that their teasing and despise is the main reason that make me cry,self abased, despair and even camouflage myself for stop being hurt.