Video Editing & Production (Task 3 )

Video Editing & Production
Teo Zhi Ye (Celine)
0319755
17 September 2016.

Did you ever think about what hurtful really mean to you?For me,its kind of feeling that make me feel depressed, helpless, self abased and being nothing.Life won't always be nice right?Everyone will  met some problems that make our life being at a low ebb.Ya,its same to me.Let me talk about one of the most hurtful thing that i met in my life.
 
I used to be fat since i was a kid.Fat is kind of nightmare for me.As i said before,I really like to sing and dance since i was small.When i was still a kid,my mum decided to bring me to the singing academy to learn some singing skills.But the "teacher" refuse to teach me by claiming that im too fat.Its such ridiculous to giving an excuses that i dont want to teach you because you are fat.I didn't put it in mind about this because im still vry small at that moment.But now when i recall it,I feel angry and sad at the same moment.I always ask myself,what's wrong to be fat?Why being fat have to be look down by others?

During primary school,there will be dance performance that perform by each classes.Me and some of my friends that are group in the fat zone will never ever have a chance to perform.Almost the whole class was performing but only left us that always sit at the audience area to see them perform. I really envy them when seeing them practice together but what we can only do is just sit at the side doing nothing.Most of the time when they having practice,we were asked to stay in the class and do our own things.Not only that,i always met this kind of hurtful situations during secondary school.I lost all the opportunities to perform or taking part in activities just because there are no small size costume for fat people like me.I can only see pictures or video of my friends posted in facebook because i dont even given a chance to participate myself in it.

I still remember an incident that really hurts me and I will never ever forget about it.During form 5,everyone will like asking what u decide to study when you entering university. Im still not sure at what to study at that time.Im kind of having some interest of being a plastic surgery doctor so im like telling my friends that maybe i will choose this as the major i want to study.Did you know what the reaction i get?They laugh me,one of them even ask me to go and have plastic surgery first before I help others to do plastic surgery when i "successfully"become a plastic surgery doctor.Its just so sarcastic to me and it really hurts me so much after hearing what she said to me.

My friends always make fun of my 'size' by using all those bad and hurtful words since im small until  the moment that i slimmed down.I always try to ignore them but fail.Everytime i will just hide myself under my blanket and cry it out to relief myself.This is the only thing i can do.Everyday i have to disguise myself to act like being not to matter.But who really knows that actually my heart is hurt and bleeding at the same moment.Eveyone think that im always happy and optimistic, but no one ever realise that their teasing and despise is the main reason that make me cry,self abased, despair and even camouflage myself for stop being hurt.

Video Editing & Production (Task 2-Question Reply)

Video Editing & Production 
Teo Zhi Ye(Celine)
0319755
10 September 2016

What i want is just to being myself.I have my own style and personalities.I don't want to change anything to cater to the preferences of others.I come from a small town alone to study in Taylors.My friends will always ask me is it fine for you to study alone without any companions of other friends from my hometown?How about your course?Is it easy to cope?How about your coursemate?For me,I think its okay to come alone for study.This is a just a process for me to become independent.Study is for me,my future and also my parents.Its impossible to stop me from pursuing my study just because there are not friends with me.My parents earn moneys for me to study hard not to enjoy life,right?Most of the people will always thought that design course is easy.Its just drawing,no need to study like other courses.Not as much people will know what we always suffer from.Lack of sleep,lack of time,thinking for ideas and inspiration,produce 3d,plan, designs and etc.I even have to give up our holidays just to done our design.I have to study of histories and also doing research also.So what i always tell my friends is design is not easy as you all think.How about my coursemate is the question that i always ask myself.I don't feel like judging but what i can tell is they cant give me the warm and familiar feeling that i had from my hometown friends.They are actually not my friends,they are just like my families.

What do i like?It is actually a very good question.😂I like to sing,dance,fashion,swim,painting and many more actually.But sometimes shortage of time dont allow me to do what i like.But once im free i will just do things i like to enrich my life.
I actually know who is looking down of me and who is really good to me.I can sense and i even heard what they judge about me.I used to be a very fat girl before.What i do that time is just a joke for some people.They will laugh at me and also making fun of me.For example,I learn to dance and my previous dance crew were asked to perform.While we performing and its my time to solo,everyone laughing at me.That moment really hurts me a lot.People mock of me because of my large size since im small.Its really kind of torture for me.But luckily my nightmares end.
Actually i also met people who looking down of my design.I got heard someone judging my design are childish and ugly.But i think it's okay,i design it and im willing to accept all the compliments by others, because i still have many lacking in my design.But im actually glad that someone judge my work because it means that my work still have value to compare with those who judge mine.Sometimes i really think that think positive is the best way to relieve ourself.Everyone can judge me but i always assure that im the best and no one can beat me down easily because still got others that appreciate my design and what i do.

Video Editing & Production Task1-Song Analysis

Video Editing & Production
Teo Zhi Ye (Celine)
0319755
7 September 2016.

During the class today,we were asked to blog about a song that we choose that we think it reflect ourself. The song that i choose that i think that it reflects me is Boombayah. It is actually a Korean song by BlackPink.The reason that i choose this song is because I feel like that either the lyrics or the music of the song really represent my personalities. I don't care or mind other peoples judging,mock or looking down of me,I just want to do what I like and what i want.I just don't want any regret in my life.Once I had decided to do something,I won't change my mind or give up easily.I just want to be brave,be persistent and be myself.Think positive is the best way to relieve myself.What i always keep in mind is although its tough to be alone but i rather be brave and independent to create my own path rather than follow others footstep.Life won't always nice.Learnt from the fall and failure is the best way to lighten me up.Because I always believe that Im the best and Im special among others.I will live swag and love me haters.
This is the music video of the song that i choose:

Translation of lyrics:

BLACKPINK in your area BLACKPINK in your area Been a bad girl, I know I am And I’m so hot, I need a fan I don’t want a boy, I need a man Click-clack Badda bing badda boom When I kick open the door, they all look at me Even if I don’t try that hard All guys get nosebleeds, pangpangpang pangpang parapara pangpangpang A toast for me right now, clink, clink, clink Hands up, in my hands there’s a Bottle full o’ henny The girl you’ve always heard about, that’s me, Jennie The dancing light wraps around me Black to the pink Wherever I am, I’m special, oh yes Don’t care if you look or not, I wanna dance Like ttaradaradanttan ttaradaradanttan ttudurubbau I like it, I like this atmosphere I like it, I like you right now I’m falling for you tonight I wanna dance with you BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH YAH BOOM BOOM BA BOOM BOOM BA oppa YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH oppa YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH BOOM BOOM BA BOOMBAYAH BLACKPINK in your area Have to run now, what else would I do I’m immature, I have no fear, man Middle finger up, F U pay me 90s baby, I pump up the jam Run, run, oppa LAMBO Today, you and I are gambling with youth Don’t you dare stop me, even if someone tries I’m gonna go brrrr RAMBO Your hands wrap around my waist Front to my back My body is special oh yes Your eyes say I know you wanna touch Like touch touch touch Touch ttudurubbau I like it, I like this atmosphere I like it, I like you right now This night is awesome I wanna dance with you BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH BOOMBAYAH YAH YAH YAH YAH BOOM BOOM BA BOOM BOOM BA oppa YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH oppa YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH BOOM BOOM BA BOOMBAYAH Let’s not be sober today We’re going higher than the sky I wanna go fast, without knowing the end Let’s go, let’s go Let’s not be sober today We’re going higher than the sky I wanna go fast, without knowing the end Let’s go, let’s go